And the Unicorn dreams.

Okay I just want to say that, Heather Morris is so funny, she could light up my day with just a word she says, when she's Brittany. I am a unicorn, she inspires me to become a unicorn. So anyway, today, the last day of Promos 1. Economics, I didn't expect it to be so straight forward, because of the recent tests that I took about the beef and the whatever test that I took. Just let me pause and take all these in for a second.

Okay done. So, currently we have a horse family, instead of the usual, dog, mouse, bird and bee, or Arthur, Lancelot, Gwaine and Elyan. We are now, Unicorn, Pegasus, Sleipnir and Zebra.

So, here's our quadrio:

Our normal animal Quadrio:

Ignore the cat (that's rachel tong), and the butterflies from the picture, and you get the dog (me), mouse (jerry), bird (hanan) and bee (vais).

And our Knight Quadrio:

And so now, we've reached our Second Semester, here's the latest Quadrio, the Horses.

Yup, so that's that! Anyway, since exams are over, I need to concentrate on the arts, my music and my language. Today after exam, I went to J8 with Hanan, actually suppose to go cut hair with Sarah, but she was tired, so I didn't wanna ask her out again. But before I went J8, I went to CBSS to collect my testimonial. Then at J8, my mum was behind my back all along, until she tapped me! Hanan and I ate Pizzahut while my mum went off to onecanberra showrooms, yup, we're moving.

Okay, I think I have a crush on someone, I have always been having a crush on this person since months ago, I mean I cannot tell the person anything because I need to concentrate on my studies. 

And the trip to science centre.

Hello Dan Ying, er yes, you're suppose to be singing, ''How'do think I feel when you call my name, my name, say my name baby.'', by Cheryl Cole, when you read this because, Dan Ying Dan Ying Dan Ying Dan Ying. hahahaha, know Megan's chinese name is Tan Ying. Too many people with similar names make me dizzy. Anyway, about today, not very happy, and then I became happy, it's like I don't know how I want to feel for the day.

Morning went to school as tired as a fat man running. Yea, when I reached school I revised for my exam, which was accounting today. When the exam started, know out of 9 questions, 5 and a half was on theory, thank goodness because if not I would've failed. But they asked, ''Accounting is not an exact science?'', it really confused me. So is accounting maths or science? Some people tell me that it doesn't have anything to do with maths or science, I don't know I feel cheated. ): I didn't really get the question, and I sat there for 10 minutes and finally came out with a good answer, i think:

Accounting is not an exact science because it doesn't have anything to do with Chemistry, Biology or Physics. Example, there are no chemical reactions when you do accounting, or no laws of physics apply in accounting too, there are no living things being disected in accounting. Therefore, it is not science at all.

unglams of jerry.

unglams of vais.

hanan and i are perfect!

Hanan laughed at me. ): At first I thought I was smart, but then actually I'm stupid when I answered the question. So anyway, forget about that, let bygones be bygones, I think this phrase can be applied to this situation. After school, Jerry, Hanan, Vais and I went to pastamania for lunch, I had the same meal, spicy chicken! Then after that, we made our way to Science Centre, it was a rash decision, at first we wanted to ice skate, or watch a movie, but then I think I suggested Jurong Bird Park, then we went to the Science Centre.

Vais and Hanan in a dark room.

Jerry and I in the same dark room.

We went to the Science Centre, admission price was $9. However the counter lady told us that our school was a member of science centre so we could enter for free. Lucky day! We had so much fun there! I saw a hedgehog, and chicks hatching and also I couldn't see Vais in the dark, finally! Tomorrow is my holiday, like for one day only, it's kind of stupid, but it's a holiday, and then on friday, it is Econs exam! Wish my brain luck!

And the struggles.

Okay so on Saturday, I didn't have any music lessons because there were no lessons on that day. Ha! Then had lots of guest over at my house, and my parents cooked. And I watched lots of tv series ~ And then went to bed. On Sunday, went to church in the morning, and then went home to start to practice maths, and read up on chinese. On monday, had chinese and maths exam, chinese i sat there for a whole 3 hours, and guess what I wrote about for the compo:

I entered the best class in secondary 3, everyone was hardworking, even me. However, I found out that I had cancer, at the lowest stage, I thought my life was over, I gave up on my studies, wanted to just waste my life on stuff I haven't tried. Until a classmate came up to me one day and asked what happened to me, and said she experienced the same kind of thing but she had heart problems, but she didn't give up. And it inspired me, and I gained back my positive attitude, passed my exams, and recovered. The end. It is a very fail essay though, maybe in English I will score an A, but chinese, uh uh.

Maths was a breeze. Went home to work on Management of business. Today when I took the paper, the first question already stunned me, ''How does an ageing population affects a shoe manufacturer in Singapore.'' Fuck you, fuck this, fuck that. The fuck was that all about? How has old people have anything to do with making shoes? Try'na make my life miserable here, I get it, but don't you think it's a little too much? Anyway, after school, hanan, vais and jerry came over to my place, and hanan taught us poa, finally, a real teacher. I'm angry and scared. Hi Dan Ying, how'do think I feel when you call my name, my name, say my name baby ~ [btw, you're suppose to sing this song when me, jerry, hanan or vais calls your name, it's fun.]

And they in Love.

Okay, since I'm bored, I'm gonna do celebrities in love, each person has 15 lines, I will do out-of-love for the next post! (which will be after my exams!) Or you could use these phrases as love notes for your beloved?

Katy Perry in Love: [Teenage Love]


You made me feel like I'm living a teenage dream, the way you turn me on.
You're original, cannot be replaced.
Fine, fresh, fierce, we got it one lock.
I'm screwed, oh well, it's a black out blur, but I'm pretty sure it ruled.
Falling from cloud9, crashing from the high, I'm letting go tonight.
Magical colourful, Mr mystery. 
I could rewrite your addiction. 
We keep all our promises, be us against the world. 
Boy you're an alien, your touch so foreign.
I can see heavens.
I let him rule my world, oh yea.
This evolution with you comes naturally.
You were made perfectly for me you see.
You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter.
Now look at me I'm sparkling.

Taylor Swift in Love: [Fairytale love]


These days, I haven't been sleeping.
You lift my feet off the ground, spin me around.
I'm wonder struck, blushing all the way home.
He would try to take away my pain.
I'm only up when you're not down.
Locked up in your arms and our friends were laughing.
I had the time of my life, fighting dragons with you.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town.
You are the best thing, that's ever been mine.
Time slows down, whenever you're around.
It's a roller coaster kinda rush.
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here.
He's the song in the car, I keep singing don't know why I do.
Cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile.

Lady Gaga in Love: [Love like crazy]


So happy I could die.
I'm your biggest fan I'll follow you until you love me.
You know that I love you boy, hot like Mexico.
I will fight for, I have fought for, how I love you.
Blueberry kisses, my lips they miss his.
I want your ugly, I want your disease.
A different lover is not a sin.
I like you a lot, think you're really hot.
You taste like whiskey when you kiss me.
There's nothing else I can say.
Nothing's too cool to take me from you.
Hold me and love me, just wanna touch you for a minute.
Half psychotic, sick hypnotic.
When he comes to me I am ready.
I'll be your everything, just touch me baby.

Avril Lavigne in Love: [Simplicity]

I like you the way you are.
We are in love.
I'm with you.
You held my hand and walked me home.
It's nice to know we had it all.
You're so fine I want you mine, you're so delicious.
I found my hopes, I found my dreams.
You're so good to me, baby.
You're not alone, together we stand.
Baby cause this is Love.
You're always there, you're everywhere.
And that's why I smile.
I talk about you all of the time.
The reason I love you, is you, being you, just you.
There's nothing else I can do but love you the best that I can.


Britney Spears in Love: [Alot of sex]


With the taste of your lips I'm on a ride.
Just wanna go that extra mile for you.
You drive me crazy.
Born to make you happy.
Choose you, don't wanna lose, you're on my radar.
You got my body spinning like a hurricane.
My favourite kiss, your perfect kiss, your perfect smile.
Baby let me blow your mind tonight.
If I said I want your body now, would you hold it against me.
You feel like paradise and I need a vacation tonight.
Be a little inappropriate.
And this type of love isn't rational, it's physical.
Like how your hands feel me up and down.
When we play pretend, body is on fire.
You cast me in your spell.

Adele in Love: [Deep Love, alot of feelings]


Until you kissed my lips and saved me.
I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
There's a fire starting in my heart.
I'm all  you need.
This ain't lust, I know this is Love.
Found myself today, singing loud your name.
He is a real lover.
When you took my sorrow and you took my pain.
Promise I'm worthy to hold in your arms.
Spread your wings, cover me.
You're too good to be true.
You make me feel like I am home again.
To make you feel my love.
I'm willing to take the risk.
I'd always kiss and hold you tight.


Rihanna in Love:


I'm obsessive, just one thought of you comes up.
He's more than a man and this is more than Love.
You have my heart, and we'll never be worlds apart.
Baby, I must say your aura is incredible.
You're the reason why I'm thinking, I don't wanna smoke.
I'm going crazy now.
You can see my heart beating.
Give it to me baby like boom.
Love is great, love is fine.
Want you to make me feel like I'm the only girl in the world.
The future seem so bright,
We found love in a hopeless place.
You the one that I dream about all day.
I'mma make you my bitch.
Feel the adrenaline moving under my skin.

So that's it for today, gonna go study my accounting lectures and do the stupid tutorials again and same for management of business.

And the hate-love relationship.

Keep your feet ready, heart beat steady, keep you eyes open.

Okay I've been watching many many shows lately, movies like, The Clique, Starstruck. Awesome great shows! So on tuesday went to study with Sarah then on wednesday, went to teach vais maths, then yesterday went out with my mum and bro to suntec to have lunch and ice cream and waffles and fats. so happy yet so sad, because ice cream keeps me happy but fats make me sad. hahaha, rubbish. i have a bad hate-love r/s with food.

today went to granny's house for lunch. and im having cramps. i went for hair treatment and it's feeling good baby! I felt ugly but now i feel beautiful ~ goodbye!

And the Coming Promos.

It's 19 June! Die alrdy, exam on 25 June. Count down, I'm doomed! So on Saturday, I went to granny's house for lunch, she cooked mee siam. :P Then I stayed at her house and watch a Korean show with her then after 2 episodes, I went home to watch my own show. Goodluck Charlie Season 2 & 3! I watch finish! Then I watched Sex and the City, Good Luck Charlie It's Christmas, This Means War, blablabla, till 5am on Sunday!


Then I went to sleep, and woke up at 8am. ): Because I forgot to turn off my alarm! Then I woke up and played Sims 3 cause I downloaded Katy Perry Sweet Treats Expansion Pack! And then I played Sims Medieval, and Black & White 2! Omg so fun sia! Till around 6pm, went to meet my parents with my bro and we went to Thompson Plaza for Swensens! :D Then went home and I continue playing my game!


On Monday, I stayed home all day and did accounting, the whole chapter! I feel accomplished! Then today went to meet Sarah at Nex, ate pastamania for lunch, went to popular to shop for books, and then went to study at CAFE CARTEL. It's so quiet, nobody eats thr, which is a good thing for us! I kept going to the toilet cause I drank so much coke and water. STUDIED 3 CHAPTERS OF ECONS. :D Then headed home! Okay bye now counting down!

Here's my exam schedule:
25 June:
H1 Chinese 3h (8.30am-11.30am)
H1 Mathematics 1h30min (1pm-2.30pm)

26 June:
H2 Management of Business 2h (8.30am-10.30am)

27 June:
H2 Principles of Accounting 2h30min (8.30am-11am)

29 June:
H2 Economics 2h (8.30am-10.30am)


And then I have the following Saturday, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, NO SCHOOL. SONGBO. This time I plan all ready.
Saturday - Rest at home & Music Day
Sunday - Church and Watch Spiderman with FAMILY
Monday - Go USS with Megan
Tuesday - Go Harry Potter exhibition
Wednesday - Bring grandma out!
Thursday - Catch up on shows day!
Friday - Go out and party ~
Okay bye now, like seriously!

And the freedom writer.

My holidays aren't fulfilled. ): There are many things I have not done, but I'm left with 1 week!

-Master the 3 musical pieces.
-Bake cake, cookies, cupcakes.
-Ice Skate.
-Karaoke.
-Harry Potter exhibition.
-blablabla

this sucks! But anyway, my parents aren't in town, I SMELL FREEDOM BITCHES! I'm not going for music today. (duh.) So on thursday, I cooked for the family, potato salad, brocoli, carrots, german sausages and steak. :P For father's day, because my parents won't be in town on father's day!

Then on friday, went to have lunch at Sakura with the whole extended family. Ya seriously the whole Sakura buffet restaurant filled with my family people. I downloaded this game called BLACK & WHITE 2, IT'S FUCKING AWESOME! And also, The Sims 3 Katy Perry Sweet Treats is fucking cool too! Now i'm gonna watch good luck charlie, kthxbye.

And the fun day out with my girls.

Yesterday woke up at 5.30am to bathe and stuff, and then left my house at 6.40am to Bishan to meet Hanan. Well she was late. Then we headed to Harbour Front MRT to meet Jerry and Vais. Then we took the monorail to Sentosa and purchased tickets into USS. Then we had breakfast at The Coffee Bean. Then we went into USS.

Our first ride was The Transformers, the graphics like a cool only. Then played Mummy ride, and Hanan was praying on the ride. LOL. Then we played the Rapid Adventure at the Jurassic Park, know the wet ride? I was the only one wearing poncho, so I wasn't wet. ^^ Then we went to Far Far Away to watch Shrek 4D. Then we ate lunch at Goldilocks, the chicken quite nice. Then we went for the Enchanted Airways roller coaster, very fast, 52 seconds. Then we went to ride Transformers again! :D Then finally, we went to ride the battlestar galactica roller coasters! I like the Cylon one, fucking awesome like super! Although after 3 times, I felt dizzy, cause of the corkscrews. Human I only sat twice! Then we went to Oasis Spice Cafe to have some tea break. Then we went home because of Hanan's curfew and Vais need go home also. ): But Hanan bought us friendship bracelets. :D

Engraved in authentic leather. Jerrybear, Jodog, Hananbird and Vaisbee. Each of the animals somehow symbolizes us. Im a dog. ): Ya so, ate dinner at Clarke Quay and then went to Serangoon and walked home from there. Gonna watch The Dictator with John and mum later ~ byebye!

And the 17th Birthday.

CAMP PHOTOS.


'I'm a prostitute'


It's damn small.


that's better. :)


Pictures with tourist at the Merlion!


We were at the esplanade library!


Okay so, on Sunday, was my birthday. Went to church in the morning, for all those people who wished me, thank you very much! But, I lost my phone at around 1pm at town, so I might not have seen the wishes. ): Because I stopped the service too! Lost the iphone~ I'm using another iphone though. LOL. I have 5 spare phones, it sounds crazy. Went to catch snow white and the huntsman, very nice! I love chris hemsworth and his brother liam hemsworth!


Then yesterday, stayed at home and studied mob and did maths! Today had accounting tuition on capital and revenue and depreciation shits. And then went to my grandma's house to have lunch then headed to ngee ann poly with my brother to meet reuben to record my voice for his project. Then came home! :) I've been watching Good Luck Charlie lately! it's so funny and cute, charlie is really cute! and also, Teen Wolf is some cool stuff!

And the 30 Hours Famine Camp.

(Abigail and I, pardon my hair, I was not having it.)
Yes guys, I went to the camp. You know I wanted to just skip the whole shit because I got music on Saturday (which is today). Then I changed my plan to just go there and take the shirt then go home, but ... Okay I shall talk about the camp, enjoy reading. NOT. Left to right. for the names.

Suyi (she from Dunearn Sec and her cousin damn pretty) and felicia (TJC)

Hui Yi (Yishun Town Sec), Udday (RJC) and Daniel (St. Gabs, he angmoh.)

Weirdo Isabel, Xian Zhe (NJC) and felicia (TJC). 

Im the one sitting on the sofa. 

Yin Hui (CHIJ TPY).

Xuan (CHIJ SJC).

The camp was fun but seriously tiring. No food, No bath, Not much sleep, Full of walking and running. In one of the games I was a baby prostitute for my family to earn money, and I kana HIV. And got this girl named Isabel she is damn grose, keep touching me, then scratch here and there and her sweat and suck her fingers. FUCKING EW. Then she is so weird, she keep slapping herself. Like wtf? My group leader don't let me pee when I was urgent. ): Till we went MBS to publicize then she let me pee, after 1 hour plus!!!!!!! The esplanade full of good food to tempt me. ): After the camp went to Roydon's brother baby shower, 1 month sia! And played pool.

Felicia and Naomi wished me early happy birthday ready sia! My church also wish me early birthday! :D Okay good bye! I will upload the other pictures in my next post.

And the short messages.

Hi, I'm back guys, I thought I would be back in the morning.  Who would've thought. Going all out for a meal, like seriously, yea. Getting fat though. I don't really want to talk about what I did today, I just wanna let my feelings flow, isn't that what a journal or a diary is all about, taking down everything that is happening, for memory's sake, and that includes inside feelings and shit.

I'm going to use song lyrics to express the unexpressables. That's what I do best. It might be a riddle for you, but you don't have to guess though. It could be an alarm, a wake up call, a soothing word of thought or just a passover reading thing for knowledge, call it what you want. :) They're all sad and happy and senseless feelings. Here goes:


I lie awake again, my body's feeling paralysed. I'm stuck here in this life I didn't ask for. There must be something more, do we know what we're fighting for. Breathe in. Breathe out.

Let me know that I've done wrong, when I've known this all along. Who has to know? When we live such fragile lives, it's the best way, we survive. These thoughts I can't deny, these sleeping dogs won't lie, and now I try to lie, it's eating me apart, trace this life back.

On a Monday, i'm waiting. Tuesday, i'm fading. And by Wednesday, I can't sleep. I can hardly catch my breathe I hope it lasts. It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real, I like the way that feels. I am moody, messy, I get restless, senseless.

Everybody hurts somedays, it's okay to be afraid. Everybody hurts, everybody screams, everybody feels this way, it's okay. So many questions, so much on my mind, so many answers I can't find. It's okay.

I'm standing on a bridge, I'm waiting in the dark. There's nothing but the rain, no footsteps on the ground, I'm listening but there's, no sound. I'm looking for a face, I'm searching for a face. And no one likes to be alone. Won't you, take me by the hand take me somewhere new.

Too much of anything can make you sick, even the good can be a curse. Just know that you're not in this thing alone, there's always a place in me that you can call home. Anything that's worth having, sure enough worth fighting for, quitting's out of the question, when it gets tough we gotta fight somemore.

Even when you're sleeping, keep your eyes, open. Dreaming dreams with happy endings. But now we've stepped into a cruel world. Everybody's waiting for you to break down, everybody's watching to see the fallout. Every lesson forms a new scar.

I'm criticized, but all your bullets, ricochet. You shoot me down, but I get up. I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose, fire away, fire away. You shoot me down, but I won't fall, I am titanium.

You can take everything I have, you can break everything I am, like I'm made of glass, like I'm made of paper. Go and try to tear me down, I will rising from the ground, like a skyscraper.

Everybody makes mistakes, everybody has those days. Sometimes I'm in a jam, I've gotta make a plan. I'll figure out a cure, I'm patching up the holes. If I'm not doing too well, why be so hard on myself? Nobody's perfect, I've got to work it again and again to get it right.

You can make it.

And the complex mindset.

It's 6/6/12, 6+6 = 12! 4 more days to..

Anyway, I'm just going to talk about what I have been doing these few days. I kinda forgot what I did on Monday, my memory is failing me. Ohyes, I remember now! I stayed at home for the day! Then went jogging with my mum and brother around 5.30pm! I only jogged for a short while, can't expect someone like me to jog a long distance, i might die dude.

Haagen Das banana split!

my long awaited cranberry juice!

mexican steak baby! (the fries tastes like nachos.)

the bar in the restaurant.

On tuesday, which was yesterday, I studied in the morning, then met marcus at 5pm at amk mrt for my birthday dinner! We went to Clarke Quay, had haagen das ice cream for starters and then headed to a mexican restaurant around boat quay for the main meal. HAD CRANBERRY JUICE! It's been a long time since I've had that! Then we walk walk around clarke quay, I brought him to the clubs, not inside ofcourse, haven't even open pris. Then we went to 313, then headed home! What a wonderful evening! And Marcus even found a $10 on the floor! Today I'm not going to elaborate much, but I found a new drama, fucking nice, i'm not telling you the name though, i watch until cry so many times. (':

Should I change my hair?

school hair.

when my hair is up.

my hair is like that now.

different hairdo.

IS MY HAIR TOO LONG?

i want my this hair back!

Alright, you know I don't know what to feel at times, i should be happy that i've found a guy who makes me happy, who treats me well, but yet deep inside i do not feel happy (we're not together yet). It's really complex what's happening in my head now. I mean you all pretty much know that I am a **, thus I somehow cannot even, there's someone whom i can't get outta my head, but i cant make any move with that person because it's just wrong, and wivkq rmdvnifknv,dfv fux, you won't know what i'm talking about unless you talk to me hth ftf, so skip this part, forget what you just read! hahahahaha!

kkkkk, gotta go study now, goodbye!